Fighting Anxiety

It's been ages since I write something on my blog. I create a blog just to say a good moment and memories of my life. I love to give good info such as reviews to helps others. I guess the reason why I didn't write any post maybe because I don't have good things to share. I can't share my memories anymore as I don't have time to update any of it. Maybe, I can't help others anymore.... I need helps.

I don't know what anxiety is, but I'm sure I have it. In the state of denial, I try to retake the mental test more than 10. The result still the same, my depression and stress sometimes go high and low so I believe that how life is. But to get the same result for anxiety problems, I'm 100% sure I do have that problem.

That anxiety feeling is not the one that you always have a panic attack. But the one that you don't even know how to react. Thus, you keep it to yourself. You feel empty. It's not that you have the negative thought or you giving up but just empty, empty. Real emptiness.

Feeling lonely despite you are in the crowd. Feeling cold inside despite your warmth hand could melt a steel. Feeling sad despite you know you have so many things to be happy with. Feeling empty.

I fight with my own ways.

But I'm not sure if my ways are the right one. But I pretty sure I'm gonna win this.

Crying out loud, but only in my mind. No one hears it.